Thoughts and Emotions

So saturday night me and my boys from work decided to hit the Oregon district in Dayton, Ohio.  Man, was that a blast. Live bands, good food and drinks, and great company.  We did ourselves a favor and rented a limo and these boys did a really good job of taking care of us.  Definitely worth a mention for an outstanding limo rental service. I really feel that I have grown as a person and that this fact allows me to enjoy life much more.

I am spending more and more time in contemplation. Just a fancy word for focused thought.  I think about how my brain works. I know I don’t control where and when my thoughts happen. They just seem to drop in out of nowhere, I have a tendency to assign a good or bad connotation to these thoughts and then I will often attach an emotion to the thought at that point.  This often establishes a mood or an emotional state. Of course this all happens so fast that you have to pay really close attention to it to even see it as a process.

Understanding this has given me the chance to practice disrupting this process and thereby gaining a greater control over my emotional state. I now strive for a positive, aggressive, and resourceful emotional state. As I get better at this I am beginning to see more and more positive changes in my life. It feels amazing.

I have made a commitment to investing in myself and in my self growth. It is a difficult pursuit but worthwhile.  The way that I see it is that studying how my own brain works is the most important pursuit I can have. I meet so many people who don’t have a clue why they do the things that they do.  It never occurs to them that they should be figuring out why. Until next time.


Wow! Has it really been so long since I posted in this blog.  Well  world, a lot has happened since we last spoke.  I have a job! I know It is hard to take in, I can scarcely believe it myself.  I am a contributing member of society.  That whole Tony Robbins thing really made me grow.  I got to give the guy his due.  His stuff is the real deal.

So I travel a lot with my job.  We build storage facilities in a very special way for a special group of people. (shhhh  I’m not suppose to tell)  It is a good job and I enjoy it and the travel.  Right now we are in Ohio which is cool,  it isn’t Texas but it’s ok by me.

I have really gotten into my personal growth recently. Yoga, meditation, visualization, I’m guess I’m turning into a regular new ager.  Lol. One thing I have been doing for myself is getting massages.  It is hard for me to believe I never tried them before. They feel so good.  My job can be pretty physical so the massages really do help with healing and regeneration.  This week I tweeked my neck out and I called this mobile massage therapist.  She is very, very good.  5 stars for sure, my neck felt great afterwards. If you are ever in southwest Ohio and need a mobile massage she is most assuredly the gal to call.  Here is her Link

So this meditation thing is kind of taking on a life of its own.  I do it every day and man is it making a difference.  When I first started I just tried to focus on counting my breaths up to twenty and starting over, no other thoughts.  The first thing I noticed was how my thought just seem to drop out of nowhere, mostly unconnected random thoughts. The second thing was that I really couldn’t control them, they would just come out of nowhere and take over my brain. Invariably, I would find myself counting up to 25 or 30 every cycle. This, of course caused me to become annoyed with myself for not doing what I was trying to do.

The humor of the situation did not escape me.  A man sitting all alone in the middle of the room becoming angry with himself for not thinking about what he wanted. Hilarious!

But I stuck with it, and I learned.  I learned to control my monkey mind and I learned that I cannot control the thoughts that I have; I can only control the energy and time I give them.  I am still a novice but I feel like I have grown from this exercise.  I will continue with it.